6 posts tagged “personal”

I'm not a big car person.  But every once in a while a movie or TV show will come along that showcases a car that catches my eye.  When I was much younger that car was a 1982 Pontiac Trans Am.  A specially modified Trans Am called the “Knight Industries Two Thousand” K.I.T.T. for short.  Everyone wanted to own K.I.T.T didn't they?  Well now someone can.   

I think I'll wait until they sweeten the deal by having William Daniels always at the ready to ride shotgun and make with the witty/sarcastic banter.

For the record I would like to point out that my K.I.T.T obsession was rather short lived. I may be a geek, but I am not “that geek”.  

Also I don't believe I currently have a dream car.  Any suggestions?

So, it's a new year I see.. Well my friends it has been a while again hasn't it? A lot has happened since last I put pen to paper, or more accurately finger to keyboard.

Where to start, how bout with the depressing stuff, that way it only goes up. So on Christmas Eve we had some of the family over to celebrate, basically just my brothers and sister and their families, during the night my Grandma's health started declining very fast, it had been coming for a couple of days, but she did bounce between up and down so we could never be sure. Anyway, it was becoming clear that this was the big dip down, she pretty much fell asleep that night and sleep on until the 27th when she passed away. As you can imagine this put a bit of a damper on the holiday. I personally had pretty much made my peace with the whole thing over the course of the last year or so, so when it happened I wasn't so much sad as relieved that she was finally at rest. This unfortunately lead to me many times in the days following feeling as if I was in the wrong, as I wasn't grieving the same way everyone else was... a lot of tears and hugging, perhaps I am in the wrong who knows?

So of course following the news we contacted everyone we could get a hold of, there was however one horrible incident. One of my moms brothers. You see long ago we were a very tight family, got together very often, well when this uncle of mine got a divorce about 14 years ago he pulled away, he fell into his own little world. What does this have to do with anything you ask? Well, he barely saw his own mother since then, I mean very little, in the last 14 years he saw her maybe 6 times, and most of that was because his children dragged him with them. So my Dad called him that morning because Mom was in no condition to be talking to people, he was very short and curt with Dad. Cut to a couple of days later, his daughter who lives in California calls, we assume it is to find out about the funeral time and stuff.

As it turns out she was calling to see if she could stop by and see Grandma on her way to the airport to go home, We assumed her dad would have called her and spread the news to the kids we didn't have contact info for.. He didn't, what is worse is one of his sons was living with him at the time (he has moved for work since) and she had been in town for two weeks staying with him... He never told them that their Grandmother passed away... That is a very very messed up thing for someone to do. Luckily my cousin was able to stay in town long enough to come to the funeral and along with her brother represent their part of the family that couldn't make it. It was nice getting to see them again since it has been a long time, if only the circumstances had been better...

But that is all behind us now, we can only go forward from here, and go forward we will. Unfortunately for me, Grandma's passing also places me jobless as my job for over a year now had been home care for her, I'm not sure where I head from here hopefully somewhere good, but at least I do know now that I've done one thing good in my life in making her last time here as comfortable as I possibly could.

What will you remember about 2005? For me, no matter how good some of the stuff in the middle of the year was I will remember that at the beginning of the year (February) My Dad's Father passed away, and at the end of the year (December) my Mom's Mother passed. How is that for depressing bookends?

So next week I head to visit friends in Michigan again for my yearly trip, I had it planned out ahead of time which is probably good because other wise I may have had to skip it, but a bought ticket is a bought ticket so you have to use it. Or at least that is my story and I'm sticking to it.

So I'll cut this short for now since I have probably beaten my old record for longest run-on sentence and most tiring paragraph (a record I set back when I was in ITT, the run-on sentence record is second only to my award for perfect use of the semicolon which I got a few months later. How is that for range? And now I am running for president of the parenthesis society!). More posts to come soon I hope, I've found a few cool new things to mess around with online. Also I plan on uploading some pics from the family stuff of late, probably to the moblog, but maybe one or two in here as well... Not sure if I'll be able to post anything from the Michigan trip while I'm there hopefully I can though. I need this trip to be fun.

Just a couple random pics from my my pics folder, cause I'm a bit bored

So I thought I would make a little comment on the qualit of the pictures. I realize the quality of them is kind of low, on the moblog normally I am able to use the "It was a phone camera what do you expect?" defense.

For these pictures on the other hand I actually did use a Sony Cybershot 32. megapixel camera. I know this camera to be capable of some just awesome pictures, in fact I've taken one or two that I think rock myself.

So for the Italian house prayer the quality is all my fault, I take the blame for it being a bit wonky. Taking the picture was kind of spur of the moment thing. While unpacking it and trying to decide where to hang it an argument over what it meant ensued. Naturally I went to the internet to find out, that is when I grabbed the camera and mangled the photo with a flash glare.

As for the quality on the picture of the sky I have a far better excuse, a few of them actually. First the picture was taken from a moving car, a difficult task but since I was going freehand I think I held the camera pretty straight. Another thing is I used a program to downsize the picture automatically, I do still have the large sized file on my end and I assure you it does look a bit better.

I need to dig out the book on my camera and see if I can set it to save in a format other then jpg. Going through some of the stuff I've shot with this camera made me realize photography can be really fun, especially when you can actually take a GOOD picture.

Somewhere between the ages of 10 and 12 I was treated quite seriously for stress induced stomach ulcers. The pains I had were actually very easy to describe, like a sharp knife cutting in and occasionally twisting. Pretty awesome for a kid that age to be that stressed out isn't it?

Something about the holidays always seems to remind me of those times.

Yes I know, it has been a while since I last opened up my mind and let the letter fall to the keyboard. I don't have a real reason as to why it has been so long, I've just felt drained lately, no creative feelings whatsoever, in fact no energy or drive towards anything at all to be honest. It's not a great feeling, so I am making an effort to push myself. We will see how it goes. I do have a few things I would like to say, hopefully I can get them out in an understandable manner.

So lets go back a couple of weeks, back to Sunday November 13.
Why do I know that date so specifically? Because on that day something happened that hit me very hard. In fact (and rightfully so) it hit many many many people very hard.

On Sunday November 13th a man passed away. A man named Eddie Guerrero.

I have always been honest and clear with myself and others when I talk about wrestling. It isn't for everyone, I don't think someone should judge someone else because they do or do not like it. But if you are someone who doesn't particularly care about wrestling I still feel that a man like Eddie deserves your attention.

So what made Eddie such a special person? Many things;

Eddie had a charisma on the microphone that is very rarely matched. When Eddie wanted to be the good guy you loved him, when he wanted to play the bad guy you loved to hate him.
In the ring Eddie had the ability to make you forget yourself and just watch. He had that certain intangible ability that again not many truly have that allowed you to suspend disbelief and just watch the working and be amazed and entertained. When Eddie came out you knew you were about to witness some good entertainment. Eddie could tell you his stories in the ring wonderfully. He could convey drama, comedy, suspense, etc... and he conveyed it with apparent ease.

When Eddie passed away he was on 4 years of being sober. That itself is a very powerful thing, if nothing else you need to respect him for that. Actually no what you really should respect is not only the strength he had to stay sober for 4 years but you should really respect what gave him the strength to do that. Eddie had love for his family, a love strong enough to keep him sober, a love strong enough to keep him happy.

To be honest there is no way that my words can bring justice to the amazing story of Eddie Guerrero, so really why try, What I can do is hope that I convey through my muddled views and thoughts that Eddie has brought me (and millions of others) many great hours of entertainment and inspiration. Just because I never personally met Eddie doesn't mean that his passing didn't hurt, that should tell you a bit about Eddie itself. I never met the man and when I read the news it left a pit in my stomach that to be honest still has not gone away.

To close this I would just like to say one thing, Thank you Eddie. You will be missed very much and truly you will never be forgotten. I hope you have found peace at last.

Let me ask you this, why is it that I as someone who lives in the Pacific time zone am constantly being treated as a non entity by the Internet and TV?

Seriously, this happens all the time, anytime there is a big secret happening on a show, or say an elimination or something of that sort. Lets take a good example, let's randomly pick a scenario. How about ohhh I don't know, a show goes to repeats for three weeks, during those three weeks the next new episode is hyped a lot, in that hype they tell you that someone from the cast is not going to survive the episode. You avoid all kinds of spoilers for 3 weeks, then the day of the show about 15 minutes before start time you forget your rule of being Very careful on the net when it is within 3 hours of the show and SLAP the surprise is ruined.

Ok you got me, that wasn't random, that happened to me tonight. My homepage is www.myway.com a decent page that keeps you updated with AP news stories in categories. Here is the problem, I accidentally opened up to my homepage and in the title for one of the stories in the Entertainment section there was a Huge spoiler that gave away tonight's episode of LOST. Seriously this was 15 minutes before it aired in my market, how lame is that? I just don't understand, why on earth is it so important to blurt out the surprise in the title of your article, seems to me if you just say that you reveal the secret in the story it's more of a reason for someone to click on and read your writing. Shame on you Internet, shame shame.